Heart Tracks - Faith & Expectations

        "Why are you so afraid?  Do you still not have faith in Me?"  Mark 4:40...."Most of us act far too quickly, and believe much too slowly."  Chris Tiegreen....."Nothing influences the quality of our life more than how we respond to trouble." Erwin Tieman..... ....."Until the time came to fulfill His Word, the Lord tested Joseph's character."  Psalm 105:19....."Tell the daughter of Zion, Look, your King is coming to you, humble and mounted on a donkey, and on a colt, the foal of a donkey."  Matthew 21:5

      That's quite a spread of scripture and quotes I know, but there's a method to my madness.  I think a struggle common to all who say they are His is in the realm of our faith and expectations.  Our faith in Him, and our expectations of what we believe He will do....or not do.  These struggles can so easily lead us into the realm of assuming and presuming.  We believe we know when He's going to act, and how.  We set the timetable, and we control the means of His moving.  We rarely put this into words, but more often than not, it's what's in our hearts.  When the Lord doesn't go along with these assumptions and presumptions, we can find it easy to wander into the realm of unbelief, and dare I say, rebellion?
     Watchman Nee asked, "Are we living in rebellion, presumption, or submission?"  I think we can often find ourselves in the first two, far less often in the third.  In Mark 4, Jesus told the disciples plainly that they were getting into the boat and going on to the other side of the lake.  They presumed that it would be a safe, quick journey.  A life threatening storm had no place in their thinking.  As the winds and waves rose, they said to the sleeping Jesus, "Teacher, don't You even care that we are going to drown."  Teacher.  Not Lord.  At that point, they fell far short in knowing who He truly was, and because of that, their faith was feeble and weak.  They acted, spoke, far too quickly, and believed much too slowly.  How like them are we?
    God told Joseph that he was to be a man of greatness both in his family and nation.  Then He allowed him to be sold into slavery, and eventually unjustly sent to prison.  Psalm 105 says that He used this time to test Joseph's character.  Surely the results of God's work in Joseph's life fell far short of his expectations of what that work would look like.  We love to get the promises.  We can do without His testing of our character in seeing the fullness of them come about.  Faith and expectations. They can be quicksand for all of us.
    Matthew 20 details Jesus' triumphal entry into Jerusalem.  A triumphal entry was predicted for the Messiah by the prophets, but so many Jews expected the Messiah to come as conquering King, which meant He would enter upon a warhorse.  Yet Jesus came upon a donkey.  Indeed, not even a full grown one.  He didn't meet the expectations of many.  It was a triumphal entry, but it was missed by most because He didn't come to them (or through for them) as they expected.  Quicksand.  How much like that is it for us as concerns our expectations of how He should come, work, be?
    Here are some things we can be sure of here.  He is true.  He will keep His Word.  He will come.  And, in the meantime, He will, as He did with Joseph, test our character until the fullness of His time.  How are we doing in the test?  Rebelling?  Presuming? Submitting?  The answer I think will lie on how deeply and well we know Him.  Like the disciples, our lack of knowledge will show in the storm.  In the storm we'll be exposed. What will we be exposed as?

Blessings,
Pastor O

Heart Tracks - Among The Tombs

      "So they arrived in the land of the Gerasenes, across the lake from Galilee.  As Jesus was climbing out of the boat, a man possessed by demons came out to meet Him.  Homeless and naked, he had lived among the tombs for a long time." ...."Where satan has his way, people live among the tombs."  Beth Moore

     Moore's words resonate in my spirit this morning as I realize how terribly true they are.  Scripture tells us that the man who met Jesus was demon possessed.  In our "enlightened" 21st century western culture, there are many who believe that wasn't really the case.  That Jesus was actually dealing with a mentally unbalanced person, and that the unlearned, unsophisticated people of that day mistakenly called it demon possession.  There are times when a little bit of knowledge really is a dangerous thing and this is one of them.  The demons were real, and so was the possession.  We can rationalize all we want, but we can't make scripture say what we'd like it to say.  Still, my purpose is not to prove the enemy's existence.  We need only examine the world we live in for that.  Nor do I want to focus on demon possession, real as it is.  No, I wish to point to something far more prevalent, and perhaps, even more dangerous and crippling.  I think the great work of the enemy against His people is not possession at all, but oppression.  I don't believe the enemy can possess a child of the King, but we can be oppressed by him, and so many are.  Might you or I be among them?
     Moore said that where satan has his way, people live among the tombs, and she is spot on in that statement.  There are so many who continue to live among the tombs of their past failures, losses, disappointments, sins.  Divorce, betrayal, defeat, grief, abuse, death of a cherished loved one.  All of them may have happened to us years ago, decades ago.  A lifetime ago.  Yet they continue to hold us.  They are tombs that we continue to live among. Their power over us seems absolute.  They oppress us, torment us.  Seek to destroy us.  As long as we continue to live among them, they'll succeed.  Our enemy, who loves to dwell among the tombs with us, rejoices to see us there.  Tormenting, oppressing, crippling.  He loves to work these things into our lives.  Yet to the tombs that we live among, comes Jesus.
     When Jesus asked the demon who possessed the man what his name was, he replied "Legion, for we are many."  A legion could be as few as a thousand, and as many as ten thousand, yet the great truth here is that all of that dark power was powerless in the presence of Christ.  With a word Jesus commanded them to leave the man, and they did.  Immediately he was whole. "Clothed and sane," he left the tombs, living there no longer.  Will we?  Jesus called Lazarus out of his tomb of death.  He calls us out from among our tombs of death.  Will we come?  Will we live among them no more?  Christ has come to those tombs to bring us out.  Will we go with Him?  Will we leave a life among the tombs for a life in the midst of His Kingdom?  The tombs of the past have no power in the face of the Christ of the present.  We need live no longer among them if we will choose to truly live within Him.

Blessings,
Pastor O

Heart Tracks - The Heart Door

       Something I have learned, and it has taken many years, is that the people I want to hear the truth concerning Christ and all that He has for us, will not hear the words I speak until they hear the voice of Christ in them.  I can tell people how wonderful, gracious, forgiving, empowering, healing, and sufficient He is, but until they hear His voice speaking these truths to their heart, they will not believe or receive. There may be mental agreement, but there is no real heart and life experience.  This is not only true in them, but has been true in me as well.  Has it been, is it so in you as well?

      I heard evangelist and Bible teacher Dudley Moore say recently that "no believer knows that they're secure in Christ until the Holy Spirit tells them they are."  One of the great, pervading, and crippling afflictions in peoples lives is fear.  Where the disabling presence of fear exists, the door is then opened for the invasion of a multitude of other enemies of the soul.  We may have believed upon Him as Savior, and have mental agreement that He is all that His Word says He is, but it's not our day to day reality. No matter how many sermons, Bible teachings, conferences and seminars we have attended, hearing these truths over and over, we have not really heard them whispered into our hearts by His voice.  We leave as we came, unchanged and still in captivity.
     A pastor's wife named Susie Davis, speaking of the years of bondage she spent in paralyzing fear due to a traumatic childhood event, said that the Father is not content to let us self-destruct.  Make no mistake, fear and its "allies" will always destroy us.  She said that it was while she was on a hike in Colorado as part of a group that the Lord spoke His freeing truth into her life.  The guide had led them through truly beautiful surroundings and then, as they made a turn on the path, he told them that they would now see a "burn."  Before them was literally thousands of acres of desolation.  A landscape of burnt trees and ground.  She said the Father spoke into her heart that this was her soul, devastated by fear.  She then noticed all the  green saplings growing everywhere, the beginnings of life anew for the forest.  He spoke that this was what He wished to do in her heart and life.  Literally bring beauty from ashes.  At that place, she came out of the darkness of her captivity.  She had not just heard words about Him, she heard Him.
    Revelation 3:20 is a much quoted verse.  Is it, our reality?  "Look!  Here I stand at the door and knock.  If you hear Me calling and open the door, I will come in, and we will share a meal as friends."  Right now, He stands at our heart door.  He calls to us. Do we hear Him?  Will we open a door kept shut by fear, worry, anger, unforgiveness, bitterness, disappointment, and a host of other diseases, and bid Him enter?  He brings intimacy, healing,  and wholeness.  He brings Himself.  He stands. He knocks.  He calls. Do we hear Him?  Will we invite Him in?  If we will, real intimacy, fellowship with Him is ours.

Blessings,
Pastor O

Heart Tracks - Dead Kernels

      "Unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed.  But if it dies, it produces many seeds." John 12:24...."We serve in a kingdom of wheat kernels, mustard seeds, and hidden pearls - small things with huge impact.  The world cannot see their value......Do not be discouraged if your faithful service to God has imperceptible results.  They are imperceptible only to the naked eye.  They are highly valued in the eternal kingdom, where those who give away their lives find them again."  Chris Tiegreen......"Sacrifice releases power.  The greater the sacrifice, the greater the power released."  John Wimber

     We live in a results oriented culture and that culture has succeeded in its invasion of the church.  Most have memorized the Lord's words that "there is reward for your work."  Our problem lies in the fact that we believe the reward should be now, and the sooner "now" comes, the better.  In truth, that reward does come now, but it is a "now" defined and carried out in a way set by Him, and not us.  This can be, and is, very frustrating to our flesh.  We are created by Him to achieve, but we most often stumble about trying to achieve what we think matters most, instead of what He calls us to lay hold of.  The reward we think He offers often has more to do with our own sense of worth.  A worth that is bolstered by notoriety, recognition, and applause.  We want to build something, something that lasts.  Something that gives us a legacy.  A monument to ourselves, though we wouldn't really call it that.  Ministry, profession, even family, we want to make something, and we want to see the fruit of that something right now.  We're after "trophies" but the problem is, His trophy looks markedly different from ours.  Ours is golden and glittering.  His is a crude, rough cross.

     Scripture says that He "placed eternity in our hearts," and so we are created and born with a desire to enter into the fullness of His eternity.  All of that was poisoned and misdirected with the entrance of sin into the human race.  A yearning, focus, set to achieve all the fullness of He and His Life, came to be a yearning and focus on achieving  the fulfillment of our own.  That desire becomes a tyrant, and a cruel one at that.  Christ alone can break it, and then redirect those yearnings unto the Father.  Yet even after a saving encounter with Him, that "tyrant" will lurk about, seeking to regain mastery over us, indeed, it will require an ever deepening work of His grace to ensure that we don't return again to his chains.  To what degree does that tyrant still lurk around, even within us?
    I'm a pastor, so most of my perspective comes from that view, but this tyrant is not selective.  He seeks us all.  In ancient Egypt, the pyramids were constructed by use of slave labor, and were meant to be not only tombs, but monuments to the lives of those buried within.  In Genesis, those who lorded it over the Israelites were called "taskmasters."  I wonder how closely in my years of ministry I have been such to the people He entrusted me with?  How much of my focus was on driving them to help me build a monument to myself through what I called "ministry?"  I don't have to wonder, for I know that the answer is "too many years."  Far too many.  He called me, entrusted me to shepherd His people, but intent on reaching my goals, achieving my ends, I ended up driving them instead.  I didn't see it that way.  I believed I was doing good, reaching the lost, teaching them to desire that as well.  Those are good things, but we so easily tie our own egos into such, and it ends up being mostly about us, and not others.  The desires may be good, but the means we fall into to reach them are not.  We've become taskmasters.  Will we remain so?
     I titled this entry "Dead Kernels" because it is only by truly dying to ourselves that we can really live in and be made use of by Him.  It may not feel like that, or look like it, but it is not our definition of it all that matters.  Just His.  Jeremiah, the Weeping Prophet was a failure by all contemporary measurements, yet His words spoke and continue to speak Life to us more than 2500 years later.  Paul, chained in a prison cell, could not have known how the words he wrote, directed by the Holy Spirit, would still minister freedom and life 2000 years after his death in that prison.  Christ, believed even by His disciples to have miserably failed, breathes Life, freedom, peace, joy, grace, by way of a cross that all thought was His end, but led instead to His glorious resurrection.  All, especially our Lord, lived with eternity in view.  Indeed, they lived in eternity.  Those who truly labor in His name will leave no legacy for themselves but that of a life that pointed only to Him, living lives that draw others to Him.  Taskmasters no more, but shepherds, followers, indeed, friends of the King, and citizens of His Kingdom.  What greater legacy could there be than that?  Will it be ours?

Blessings,
Pastor O
     

Heart Tracks - Soaked

      "The rain and snow come down from the heavens and stay on the ground to water the earth.  They cause the grain to grow producing seed for the farmer and bread for the hungry.  It is the same with My Word.  I send it out and it always produces fruit.  It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it."  Isaiah 55:10-11....."Do I really believe these words, and if I do, how does it show?"  An entry in my prayer journal put down in response to this promise.

     The question arising for me, for us, is not only do I believe these particular words, but do I believe all of His Words?  Jesus said that we do not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.  Do our lives look like this is our reality?  In the various crises of life, in my decisions, needs, dangers, desperation, is it to Him, His Word, His promise that I turn?  Does His Word anchor me to Himself?  Is the foundation of my life, my household, my ministry, my all, built upon He and His Word?  Or, do I look to other sources, places, people and things for help, relief, deliverance?  Hard questions.  Can we stand still before Him long enough that we might answer them?

     I was reading the account of a missionary to the middle east and northern Africa this morning, who, like Job, had been swept up in a series of traumatic events.  Persecution and danger from the local police, the denial of a trusted ministry teammate to re-enter the country, and then, the diagnosis of another team member possibly having suffered a severe brain hemorrhage.  She wrote, "My mountains were shaking.  I could barely form the words to call out to God.  Desperate for peace, I began to soak my mind in Scripture about His mighty power, unfailing love and complete sovereignty.  His Spirit slowly took control of my anxious heart and gave His perfect peace."  Our choice will always be, are we going to "soak" in the terror of the need, danger, pressure of the moment, or in the reality of His Presence, Life, and Word?  What we're immersed in will show through in our day to day living.  What's showing through in yours and mine?  Do our lives speak of our living in an uneasy fear and anxiety that turns to shrill panic when the storms arise?  Or, do we send forth a witness of calm trust in the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit who witness together that they cannot lie, and cannot fail us?
     We're human and trauma will invade our lives, and always in the most unexpected time and way.  It will affect our emotions, our thoughts, and bodies and spirits.  It is what we do next that will make all the difference.  Will we sink in the mire of it all, or will we rise in and to Him by the power of His Life and Word?  Watchman Nee tells a wonderful story of his own experience in such a time.  In the midst of a great need and time of affliction, he had prayed, like most of us would, that the problem be removed, but it wasn't.  He said that the picture the Lord gave Him was of a riverboat being unable to pass a 5 foot high boulder in the narrows of a stream.  He said the question arose in his heart of whether it would be better for the boulder to be removed or for the Father to raise the water level 5 feet?  He knew it was the latter, and wrote, "Christianity is not a matter of removing boulders, but of having deeper water."  Of soaking, living, moving in that deeper water.  Soaked in Him.  Paul said that "In Him we live, move, and have our being."  Are these words we "know" or words that we truly live in?  We're going to "soak" in something. What are we soaking in right now?

Blessings,

Pastor O

Heart Tracks - Losing Weight

       "Follow Me," Jesus said to him, and Levi got up and left everything and followed Him.  Luke 5:27-28....."Have you noticed that nearly everytime someone follows Jesus they leave something behind?......following Jesus implies a radical rearrangement of all of life.  Nothing is the same after we meet Him.  He redirects us from our previous path.  No one in the Gospels became a follower of Jesus and squeezed their discipleship in around their current lifestyle.  The encounter was too earth-shattering for that. Everything was new."  Chris Tiegreen...."Salvation is free, but discipleship costs everything we have."  Billy Graham

     The Left Behind book and movie series of a decade or so ago garnered a very large following both in and outside of the church.  They focused on the rapture, the taking away of the believing church upon the second coming of Christ, and what would take place among all those who had not believed upon Him and have been left behind.  I've no desire here to get into any kind of debate about what is usually referred to as end times prophecy, His return, or the rapture.  We can so easily become so focused on what may come to be, that we are blind to what is right now. The greater question I have here is why is it so easy for us to imagine ourselves leaving everything behind then, when we are seemingly unable to leave anything behind now?   Whatever your view might be on the doctrine of His return, that's a question we cannot get away from.  If we are followers of Jesus Christ, what is it that we have really left behind?  How much of what we considered "ours" when we came to Him, continues to be ours now as we profess to follow Him?  How much "weight" do we still carry while we say we're following Him?
     In the 1840's with the opening of the west, a mass exodus began of pioneer settlers heading to California and Oregon.  These settlers would leave the east in huge conestoga wagons, carrying all the belongings they considered precious and could not be left behind.  Once past St. Louis, and into the great hardships of the journey, it is said that what was known as "the Oregon Trail" was littered with discarded belongings that could not be kept if the journey was to be completed.  Getting to where they were going meant more than what had once been their most prized possessions.  If you're a follower of Christ today, does such a spirit mark you, me?  Is getting to where He leads us, becoming all that He has created us for so deeply desired that we are willing to discard anything that may keep us from that place in Him?  Many of those pioneers arrived in Oregon bereft of all they had begun with but didn't consider it loss for they had arrived at the destination their hearts longed for.  The apostle Paul said he counted the loss of all things as nothing more than dung for the surpassing joy and greatness of having and knowing Christ.  Are we in possession of such a spirit and attitude today?  Or do we cling to those things we believe more precious to us than Him?  Are we trying to "squeeze" what we can't let go of into a life that we say is committed to Him?  Do we expect Him to adapt Himself to our lives, and not we to His?
     Losing weight has always been a desire for many.  In the spiritual realm, what "weight" do we need to shed?  It can be far more than just possession or relationships.  It can be the pain of the past, heartbreak of the present, or fear of the future. Whatever it is, it's a weight that crushes us.  In His Word, we're called to exchange the weight of these burdens for the weight of His glory.  (2 Corinthians 4:17)  His glory is a weight that lifts us ever higher, but to lay hold of it, we have to release the weight of all we carry and keeps us from it.  Can we?  Will we?  Or, do we continue to try to make it to the "new country" we were created for while we continue to hold onto all those "things" that keep us tied to the old one?  Have we left everything?  "Get out of your country...and go to the land that I will show you."  Genesis 12:1.....Are we still in our old country?  Have we had even a glimpse of the new country He calls us to?  What is the "weight" we need to lose in order to enter into it?

Blessings,
Pastor O

     

Heart Tracks - Pierced

      "Now when they heard this, they were pierced to the heart, and said to Peter and the rest of the apostles, 'Brethren, what shall we do?'  And Peter said to them, 'Repent, and let each of you be baptized in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of sins....' " Acts 2:37-38...."Now Saul, still breathing threats and murder against the disciples of the Lord.......heard a voice saying to him, 'Saul, Saul, why are you persecuting Me?' " Acts 9:1,4......"Grace begins with a crisis.  It cannot be understood apart from a clear recognition that we need it desperately.....Contrary to the popular image of Jesus as thoroughly benign and accommodating, He speaks the painful truth.  And sometimes that truth is incredibly humbling......No redeemed persons are spared from the knowledge of their offenses before God, because it is only in that knowledge that we can stand in His grace.  It is harsh, yes, but behind the harshness is the love that brings us to Him."  Chris Tiegreen

     I know that's a lengthy opening, but I was struck this morning by the words of Tiegreen in my quiet time with Him.  Something has been happening in the church for quite a while now, and that is an ever deepening misunderstanding of His saving grace. Somehow we have watered everything down to a kind of "no-guilt" salvation.  Don't misunderstand.  I believe completely in the fact that there is NO condemnation for those who are in Christ.  But to be in Christ, there has to come to everyone that spiritual crisis that Tiegreen writes of.  One doesn't need a degree in theology for this to happen.  For me, that crisis happened in the dining room of the home I grew up in.  I'd been attending a small church plant for several weeks, hearing the "Good News" as the gospel is called, and it was good news.  But it was a news that, as Acts 2 related, pierced my heart.  I had absolutely no biblical knowledge, but I had "knowledge" that I desperately needed this Jesus I had been hearing about. I knew I was inadequate in myself to come out of the mire of my sin.  I knew that I was lost, and I desperately wanted to be found.  In truth, until we know that we're really lost, how can we be truly found?  How can we be saved?
     Francis Chan wrote that "Nowhere in the Bible does it say that if you pray a prayer, you'll be saved."  He's right.  Salvation doesn't come about because we prayed a prayer, went to an altar, or raised our hand in response to an invite to Christ.  It comes to the heart that is made aware of it's poverty in itself, and it's powerlessness to change that, and is then made aware that the only way out of that place is Jesus Christ.  By His grace, and only by His grace are our eyes opened to see our need.  By His grace alone are we granted His repentance which is a yielding up of our will and way to Him, and a determination to now walk in His.....by grace alone.  This is a knowledge that is, as Tiegreen says, harsh.  It is a knowledge and truth that as Acts 2 relates, pierces our hearts and being.  It hurts.  Indeed, it hurts our flesh to death, and in that harshness, pain, piercing, we discover His saving, transforming love.  As His Word says, "There is no other name (Jesus) by which we must be saved." There is also no other way than this way, which is His way.
    Saul of Taursus believed he was serving God as he sought to destroy the followers of Christ.  He thought he was in the right spiritual place. His encounter with the risen Christ on the Damascus Road pierced his heart and mind with the truth of where he truly was....lost, and living against Christ.  It knocked him to the ground, and then He who was Truth, lifted him into a life of truth. A life that transformed Saul the enemy of Christ, to Paul, the apostle of Christ's heart.  There was nothing benign or accommodating in how Christ dealt with the crowd in Acts 2, or with Paul on the way to Damascus.  There will be none with you or me, or anyone else as well.  His truth will make us free, but only after its piercing light has broken through every wall and obstacle our flesh has erected to keep it out.  It starts with the truth of who He is, and not who we have wished Him to be.  Has this truth pierced our hearts?  If so, will we be His vessels of truth that it may now pierce others through us? Or, do we really prefer that benign, accommodating Jesus?

Blessings,

Pastor O